Trouble dealing with a certain girl
Lately I’ve been having a lot of trouble dealing with a certain girl who happens to be a close friend. Over the past 5 months or so we’ve gotten really close, to the point where I’ve trusted her with a number of things I often feel uncomfortable talking about in public. I need to mention that 5 months ago she was SERIOUSLY insecure, but over the past few months seems to be on a maturity growth spurt and has gotten much better at least as far as her confidence is concerned.
Now we’ve been having a number of tiff’s since December or so. Before I go on, let me mention that we did have a bit of a problem in Oct or Nov when she was once at my place with a number of people, some of whom I didnt know so well. She pissed me off because she was being a bit rude. Later when we talked about it she admitted the reason, which is she gets a jealous if I give other girls more attention than her. Now at the end of December, once the winter holidays had started, she once used a particularly unpleasant day to make me feel even worse. She later explained that she was acting mean that day because I often make her feel ignored when others are around so she was just trying to get back at me. When she apologized that day she was even crying because she had hurt me, which at least says something about her sincerity to me. However, the extent to which she went overboard was a bit too high that day, and I’ve lost a good deal of trust for her since then, which she has managed to accept is her fault (impressively).
I think I’m rambling, let me try to cut this short. Over the past few weeks (remember shes going through a bit of a growth period) shes been getting somewhat popular. I personally dont have a problem with this of course, but I know that often people can get quite obnoxious when this happens. Heck I lost a really close friend to this phenomenon once. So this mentality is somewhat in my mind. Today I was just chatting with her and she was acting a bit odd. Then at one point she says she really misses me and wishes she was with me. I said that was very nice of her, then said are you playing some kinda weird push/pull game with me here or is it just my imagination. Her response was “u imagine too many things & itz very stressful to tell u anything”. Now that was quite cold of her so I just said “OK Fine” and let her be.
But the fact that she would just blow me aside this way is really pissing me off. I do believe in open communication and can even force myself to be vulnerable if I feel I can trust that person, but after she blew me off this way I don’t think that would be a good idea. Even if she was to listen I think it wouldnt be a good idea for my OWN self-respect. Its just a bit harder in this case because she is such a close friend. But these arguments have been happening wayyy too much lately.
